So, I started the note that you can see on my wall.

And then, &(*^(~! I —forgot— the whole story! Which was staggering! This drives me insane! It is like I left an unsolvable riddle, from November 23, 2013… for myself. And I cannot solve it! And it was earth-shattering!

So I had to just … finish the symphony… without being able to recall the bloody motif that was so urgently impossibly exquisite… that I know… I have only failed. And yet… and yet…